Magical Moments

Most often we come across a situation where we are in two minds : Should we Go ahead and do it? Or should we wait and decide if we can?  A kind of situation where all our instincts point us in one direction, and yet civilization leads us to choose the exact opposite direction.

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That split second moment when all of our senses are in harmony, yet civility decides to play spoilsport, robbing us of the miracle that could have otherwise been born. All the magic lies in that one moment that we hesitate … and pause to decide if we should follow what our heart , mind and soul is whispering albeit in a very faint voice.

There was this man, Roger , who was besotted with a lovely young woman. For days, he would muster up his courage to go and proclaim his love to her, only to hold back and abandon his resolve at the last minute. One day, his magical moment descended upon him  when he was walking on the road and came upon his lady love picking flowers from a roadside tree. He could hear the voice of his soul, directing him to declare his love to her. Yet he stood still, content to watch as she picked her flowers and put them in her basket. Suddenly there came a handsome young man in a fancy car. As he watched with growing pain in his heart, his lady love got into the car and disappeared down the street. He never saw her again. Five years later when he (still single and unable to forget his first love), walked into a restaurant, he saw her, his lady love, sitting alone at a table and reading a book. He approached her. What started as a casual meeting grew into strong friendship, and he realized both of them were so aligned to each other. This time, when he had his magical moment, he won over his hesitation, and finally proposed to her, and they were happily married for a long time.

Roger was one of the few lucky people for whom life gives a second chance, but for most of us, it is not so. If we do not respect our magical moment, it is lost forever.

It is in stopping and pausing to dissect what our soul dictates at such moments, that we irrevocably forfeit Love of  a lifetime, friendship that could have been second to none,  hope that could have been sowed, lives that could have been saved and healing that could have otherwise been.mother-teresa-great-quotes-images-words-by-mother-teresa-quotations-of-mother-teresa-images-wallpapers-photos-pictures-download-550x413

open up your heart to the ones you love, let them know how much they mean to you, love them without restraint and speak your love without filters, for we may never get another ‘magical moment’.

All the magic lies in that one moment, so don’t let yours slip though the holes of logic and sensibility!

The Light at the end of my tunnel..

When god created mankind…he also created the problems that would keep them busy and occupied. After all if life was all happiness and contentment, what would we do with all our time? Would it not be totally boring and bland if we knew every night while we went to bed, and every morning as dawn broke, that our joy and laughter would be safely restored the moment our eyelids open? And so is why each day is different, and we have no idea what awaits us when the sun rises day after day, as seconds become minutes, as minutes become hours, as hours become days we grapple endlessly with our multifaceted problems as they hound us in all their unremitting glory!!

So what is it then that holds us from bursting at the seams…from irreversible collapse as we are accosted by one hurdle after the other? It’s solely because of these angels that god filled our lives with to ensure that we are never left high and dry, no matter what!

Yes its these very same angels that so beautifully fringe our little world… that we call our ‘friends’.

Sometimes when life is not all green fields and smooth roads that are bright and well light…. when all we see
are dark and sinister tunnels that seem to run endlessly, it is these angels that help us traverse even the deepest cavern.
My life is blessed by only a few such angels. But of all those only one stands out …. and that is my healer… my best friend!
In a world that’s obsessed with digital madness, where people have no time to talk to you , or listen to what you need to say, my angel has not only stood by me through all my darkness, she has never hesitated to drop all her priorities to hold my hand and lead me through the longest tunnels and towards the light.

So recently when I found myself gaping at the ominous and gloomy mouth of yet another tunnel, I looked around for her. To m1766f4a7e60abb90cff9c67b3b5515d5y despair, I could not find her anywhere. All of a sudden, I found myself panicking. Realizing I was on my own
, I tried in vain to muster the courage and confidence that I needed so badly at the moment. I closed my eyes, willing myself to stay strong despite the fact that my whole being felt empty and betrayed. I blindly groped my way through the tunnel feeling all vulnerable and alone. Knowing I had no choice, I slowly pressed ahead refusing to heed the hurt in my heart, trying all the while to ignore the voice in my head that was shouting:  “She does not care for you, You trusted her, she has let you down.”  Time passed me by, and my steps became slower, my path became darker and my hopes of enduring and reaching the other end became dimmer still.

I stopped, buckled over and decided to give up on myself, my dreams and hopes and my doomed journey. Just then I saw a faint flicker of light on the pathway just around the upcoming bend. Hoping against hope, I dragged my wounded soul to the bend. There
just a few yards away I saw the end of the tunnel, bright light pouring in through it. And there, silhouetted against the opening, shining brighter than the bright sunlight, was my best friend, waiting for me, with her arms wide open in a welcoming embrace!!

I ran to her shouting “why did you leave me alone? why did you betray my trust?”

And she said “Because I had full faith in you, I knew you will endure and come out of the darkness and that is why I was waiting for you here. I never left you, I was with you all the while, praying for you, but I needed you to know your own power and to see that you will be able to handle anything life throws at you even if I am unable to physically be there for you!”the-moon

All of a sudden I felt ashamed for even doubting her intentions.
She is my healer, my best friend and god-sent angel, and I feel blessed to have her in my life! She is the light at the end of my tunnel. Trust in god’s angels that grace your life everyday, not your circumstances.

Wishing everyone a beautiful and blessed new year!!

Solitude

Here I stand, before thee
Defenseless as an aging tree
Ties, bonds and love that wane as I flee
For the endless abyss that now beckons me…
Here I stand, before thee
Empty and alone as one can ever be
Vast void spaces as far as the eyes can see
Hesitant and torn …a  heart that cries in a final desperate plea
Here I stand before thee
Swirling winds that engirdle with evil glee
Sonorous whispers.. “you’ll be free.. you’ll be free”
As dreams and hopes of a lifetime fade in memory
Broken and torn … feeling like the weest  wee
A prisoner in a world where solitude quells  ‘WE’
And so, Here I stand before thee,
Defenseless as an aging tree
Dreading the unbeknown fate that awaits me…
 Not knowing where to go, or what to be…

Soulmates

Who is a soulmate really? It would appear hopelessly cliched to define a soulmate as one who loves you unconditionally, and who completes you in every-way possible.

Rather, I feel a soulmate is someone who rubs you the wrong way umpteen times, who drags you into multifarious fracases of varying gravitas, and yet remains as lovable as ever, if not more!!

After all, the love that is woven with threads of grief and distress is the most enduring and deep-rooted. And people who share that kind of love- they are soul-mates who are truly tumblr_mt5re51Apw1svi7b9o1_500supreme and inviolable!!

A person who chooses to hold your hand and walk through the doorway of all the trials and tribulations that you may encounter is the unexampled quintessential soulmate.

He; who makes you understand yourself better through his mistakes, who sometimes makes you realize what you truly want, by bringing what you don’t want,  who helps you metamorphose from what you are into what you are meant to be, who makes you come alive; is your soul-mate in all his winsome glory.

A soulmate is forever : simple not complex, flawed not perfect, not phlegmatic, loving not stolid, emotional not clinical, a human not an automaton!!

A soulmate : is forever..

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A LIFE THAT’S LESS THAN FULL

Most of us are familiar with the philosophical question “Is the glass half empty or half full ?”

Well, Wikipedia has this to say on the above quote ‘It is a common expression, generally used rhetorically to indicate that a particular situation could be a cause for optimism (half full) or pessimism (half empty).’

I have a totally different interpretation of this though… It’s totally irrelevant if the glass is Half empty or Half full because what is important is that the glass is ‘not full’ as it should be and, anything that is less than full is not easy to live with.

The other day, I was at the Clinic, waiting to visit my GP. Despite having an appointment and despite being on time, I had to wait for quite long! Not having anything better to do, I was aimlessly flipping through the pages of the magazine I had randomly picked up, until I found an interesting article. That it was a multi-specialty clinic (housing a Pediatrician, a Psychiatrist, a GP, a Dentist, and a Psychologist) , made it noisier and therefore harder for me to focus on what I Untitledwas reading. Finally frustrated by the chaos around me, I gave up on my reading and decided to engage in some people-watching. I glanced around… There were a few elderly people, mothers with coughing kids and wailing babies … nothing unusual for a clinic. And then I noticed them, coming out of the psychologist’s room, discussing something. There were three of them, an Old man, a middle-aged woman (probably his daughter), and her son. The first thing that struck me about the boy, who looked about 10, was that he was different. He kept drawing invisible figures in the air and seemed oblivious to everything around him. As I continued watching, the boy suddenly started running towards the waiting area. The mother and grandfather started running after him, their eyes reflecting a sense of disquietude and dismay over what he might do. The boy continued running, right past me, and entered the aisle right behind me, went till the end of the row of seats and stopped near the last few chairs, apparently the ones they had been occupying while waiting to see the doctor. Then, he bent down and picked up an umbrella and a bag that was lying on the floor and returned to his mother and grandfather with a triumphant smile. As I slowly let myself relax, I realized that I had been holding my breath all along, expecting something untoward ! I turned around and to look at the grandfather and mother. Their flustered faces instantly metamorphosed into those that radiated immense relief. I overheard the mother tell her father “I never thought he was capable of being so responsible and self-aware.” She hugged her son and told him how proud he had made her.

           As I sat there in a state of disbelief, a sudden revelation dawned upon me. Here we are, complaining, lamenting, and worrying about wealth, fame, prestige and so many other complicated stuff, and yet we shut our eyes to the fact that we live amidst people who are deprived of even a bare-bones version of life.

We all have this tendency to gloss over the blessings in our life while throwing all our problems and woes into sharp relief. It is basic human instinct to juxtapose our lives and our situations with those of the people around us. It is also natural that for the purpose of such collocation, we always choose only someone who seems to be better off than us in all aspects, so we can lament in length about all our tribulations. We often fail to perceive that for every person who is above us, on a higher rung in the ladder, there is one on a lower rung, below us! Why not peg ourselves up against these people and be thankful for the little extras that enhance our lives?

A child picking up his belongings before going home is something people would not even notice and yet for this mother, it was a momentous occasion. Her fugacious enthusiasm and joy spoke volumes about the life ordeal she was enduring.

         Simple things that we take for granted, are, for many others out there, a long coveted dream that might never become a reality. So the proverbial glass, whether it is half-full or half-empty anyway is going to be difficult to handle and live with.

          And God is so extremely critical and choosy, that he does not hand out full glasses to all and sundry. So If you have been blessed with a full or an almost full glass, do not lament about how difficult it is to keep it from spilling over, rather take the effort to look at the empty ones, the half-full ones around you and, be thankful for you full glass!

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When the soul weeps…..

When tragedy strikes people closest to our heart, especially when it is of the worst kind, it does not afflict them alone… the grief feels more like our own.

How do we console someone who has just lost someone dear, forever? Especially when we know that no amount of our words or actions can alleviate the deep distress inflicted by death.

Rendered absolutely useless by fate ….reduced to being a mute witness to the raw anguish that is tearing apart the people we love the most….all we can do is try to will away the boundary that separates life from death…wishing we could magically gain the power to give them  back the person that they have lost!

To see that person, whom we love and care for deeply, who has always been the epitome of calm, crumble and break down uncontrollably right before our eyes makes us feel so hollow and empty. Unable to offer anything other than our trifling love and understanding, we let our soul weep unbridled, along with theirs.

What else can we do, when god decides to take back a life…one that is so dear to us…. even though it always belonged only to him! When he decides to stop the game, un-heeding our mortal pleas for playing it forever, what else can we do but unquestioningly surrender to his will.

Why should it be that while death liberates the souls of those who are leaving, it entraps the souls of those who are left behind, in an inescapable maze of grief and tears? Why can’t it be otherwise?

Unfortunately and ironically, it is death that teaches us the real value of life and love…In that moment when a life is lost, never to be regained … when a soul returns back to god…. he emphatically reiterates, that we are but puppets in his hands….that he is the indubitable authority….that, in truth, nothing we treasure as ‘ours’ actually belongs to us, including our own body and soul!

When people closest to our heart weep….all of our worries and problems suddenly become trivial and insignificant before their grieving heart….

When people closest to our heart weep… our souls weep along with them… wanting and wishing to be there for them in the best way possible, praying for god’s mercy and grace to envelop their bruised souls in a comforting and healing embrace.https://i2.wp.com/prayercommunicationwithgod.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/02/3772_Journey-of-the-Survivor-From-Grief-to-Survival-_958859577_n.jpeg