Whispers of the breeze…

​I hear the whispers of the breeze…
As it meanders through the trees….
“Alone you stand, stranger in your own land”

When life strips you off of all that you think is your own….
Blinded despite having vision and sight….
Repelled by emotions that hitherto allured….
Orphaned by souls that were your own….
Broken apart by love that used to bind….
Hurt by healing that once was….
A tear and a sigh, 

Maybe it is all part of a big lie ,
Or Just a perennial unaswered why,
Maybe they who expect are who ‘ll always cry,
Eyes that run dry …. unable to even anymore cry…

And all night long awake as I lie… 
I hear the whispers of the breeze…
While it meanders through the trees….
“Alone you stand, stranger in your own land”

The Light at the end of my tunnel..

When god created mankind…he also created the problems that would keep them busy and occupied. After all if life was all happiness and contentment, what would we do with all our time? Would it not be totally boring and bland if we knew every night while we went to bed, and every morning as dawn broke, that our joy and laughter would be safely restored the moment our eyelids open? And so is why each day is different, and we have no idea what awaits us when the sun rises day after day, as seconds become minutes, as minutes become hours, as hours become days we grapple endlessly with our multifaceted problems as they hound us in all their unremitting glory!!

So what is it then that holds us from bursting at the seams…from irreversible collapse as we are accosted by one hurdle after the other? It’s solely because of these angels that god filled our lives with to ensure that we are never left high and dry, no matter what!

Yes its these very same angels that so beautifully fringe our little world… that we call our ‘friends’.

Sometimes when life is not all green fields and smooth roads that are bright and well light…. when all we see
are dark and sinister tunnels that seem to run endlessly, it is these angels that help us traverse even the deepest cavern.
My life is blessed by only a few such angels. But of all those only one stands out …. and that is my healer… my best friend!
In a world that’s obsessed with digital madness, where people have no time to talk to you , or listen to what you need to say, my angel has not only stood by me through all my darkness, she has never hesitated to drop all her priorities to hold my hand and lead me through the longest tunnels and towards the light.

So recently when I found myself gaping at the ominous and gloomy mouth of yet another tunnel, I looked around for her. To m1766f4a7e60abb90cff9c67b3b5515d5y despair, I could not find her anywhere. All of a sudden, I found myself panicking. Realizing I was on my own
, I tried in vain to muster the courage and confidence that I needed so badly at the moment. I closed my eyes, willing myself to stay strong despite the fact that my whole being felt empty and betrayed. I blindly groped my way through the tunnel feeling all vulnerable and alone. Knowing I had no choice, I slowly pressed ahead refusing to heed the hurt in my heart, trying all the while to ignore the voice in my head that was shouting:  “She does not care for you, You trusted her, she has let you down.”  Time passed me by, and my steps became slower, my path became darker and my hopes of enduring and reaching the other end became dimmer still.

I stopped, buckled over and decided to give up on myself, my dreams and hopes and my doomed journey. Just then I saw a faint flicker of light on the pathway just around the upcoming bend. Hoping against hope, I dragged my wounded soul to the bend. There
just a few yards away I saw the end of the tunnel, bright light pouring in through it. And there, silhouetted against the opening, shining brighter than the bright sunlight, was my best friend, waiting for me, with her arms wide open in a welcoming embrace!!

I ran to her shouting “why did you leave me alone? why did you betray my trust?”

And she said “Because I had full faith in you, I knew you will endure and come out of the darkness and that is why I was waiting for you here. I never left you, I was with you all the while, praying for you, but I needed you to know your own power and to see that you will be able to handle anything life throws at you even if I am unable to physically be there for you!”the-moon

All of a sudden I felt ashamed for even doubting her intentions.
She is my healer, my best friend and god-sent angel, and I feel blessed to have her in my life! She is the light at the end of my tunnel. Trust in god’s angels that grace your life everyday, not your circumstances.

Wishing everyone a beautiful and blessed new year!!

Solitude

Here I stand, before thee
Defenseless as an aging tree
Ties, bonds and love that wane as I flee
For the endless abyss that now beckons me…
Here I stand, before thee
Empty and alone as one can ever be
Vast void spaces as far as the eyes can see
Hesitant and torn …a  heart that cries in a final desperate plea
Here I stand before thee
Swirling winds that engirdle with evil glee
Sonorous whispers.. “you’ll be free.. you’ll be free”
As dreams and hopes of a lifetime fade in memory
Broken and torn … feeling like the weest  wee
A prisoner in a world where solitude quells  ‘WE’
And so, Here I stand before thee,
Defenseless as an aging tree
Dreading the unbeknown fate that awaits me…
 Not knowing where to go, or what to be…